Swing of things.

Things are going well. I've met some cool people and done some very fun things but the whole realization still has not hit me yet. I keep having bursts of missing my friends and being sick of trying so hard to impress new people, needing hugs and love from my parents, having the desire to see ghoti's barely visible smile and feel the warmth and comfort of my bed. I'm almost ready to just come home and call it quits. But, I know once school starts things will begin to make more sense and things will fall into place. I hope. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE it here. This is such an amazing exciting city. And the people I have met I genuinely like. And my school events have been unbelievably awesome. But its not my home yet. It isn't fully comfortable yet. I'm so glad I have Josh, Jamie, Thayer and Dave though. Having them makes it feel more like home. They are pretty much the only people I hang out with. Partly because we don't have many other friends yet and partly because I don't want us to fall apart when we do meet new people. I love these kids, even Dave who I didn't like much before I left. I love them all and I would be awful without them right now. 

I'm excited for school to start but I'm so nervous. Am I going to make it? Oh yes I am having those normal doubts and fears. I'm a freshman in college. Catch me a break. I know the encouraging words and I cherish their imprint in my brain. Nonetheless, I'm freaked out. 

I'm just ready to get into the swing of things.